Letting Go, A poem To Myself~
Wednesday, 8 June 2011
it is nvr easy to let go of someone
someone tats a part of you,
someone tats second to none.
bt wen the time comes n it ur fren's turn,
you hv alr lost the fight.
letting go is nt easy,
and it might jus make u queasy.
u may feel tat ur world has ended
bt u mus make it mended.
if ur fren is head over heels,
help her to close the deal.
her happiness is at stake ,
while urs is worth the wait.
lettinggo is nt easy
as u mus fullfill the conditions laid
and the concequences tat awaits.
im up for the challenge my friend,
as my fight has alr end.
i assure u a helping hand i'll lend
to make him understand.
he noes ur the one for him nt me,
cos u r my fren's fren:)
letting go is nt easy,
bt im willing to try.
even if it makes me cry,
tats smth i'll oblige.
since im out of the picture there is nth to trigger,
the repulsion btwn u two...
i wish u all the best my fren,
and support u till the end.
but rmb:
letting go is nvr easy..
I jus wanna say: congratulations u two! good luck with ur relationship n last long okays?^^
posted at : Wednesday, June 08, 2011
How Do You Feel?~
wenever i look at you,
my face starts to redden.
wen im nxt to u,
i cant even breathe.
wen i hear you,
my heart beats rapidly.
even at the slightest sight of u,
it still made me swoon.
tats hw i feel,
bt hw do you feel?
thr were times wen i caught u staring,
or was i dreaming?
there were times wen i feel,
tat u want me to see n feel ur presence,
to noe tat ur nt absent.
there were times wen i tink i saw u blush,
wenecver we r near each other,
or...do u even bother?
sometimes i ask myself,
hw do u feel?
do u feel a little smth for me or not?
hw do u feel abt me?
r we even meant to b?
wad do u tink of me,
or u hv nvr tot of me?
do u even want to tok,
or...mayb i guess not?
im sure by now u noe hw i feel abt u,
so tel me hw do u feel!
tats all i id to noe,
in order to make my descision.
the descision to gv u up n move on,
or wait n continue on.
all i need,
is for u to ans tis qns:
HOW DO YOU FEEL?
not abt anyone else,
bt me honestly.
please ans me...
hw do u feel?
posted at : Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Love Life Of Mine~
flowers, chocolates, so many lies.
you had all u want but u didnt even try.
seconds, hours, so many days
i can b strong bt hw long cn i wait?
somethings happen after another.
i cn move on bt hw much cn i take?
nothing really lasts forever,
n soon i feel ive lost my way.
when tat really happens,
she came and took my place.
a place i nvr had,
bt wished for it like mad.
i asked myself, wad u r to me.
cn i live w/o u?
bt times w/o u,
hw m i gonna live?
times and days w/o u,
m i gonna make it through?
times w/o u,
in my dreams, appeared a future
tat wud nvr happen.
y is it so?
u r always messing wif my mind,
thinking of u every time.
bt one thing's for sure...
u will nvr b mine:)
posted at : Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Just Go Away~
Tuesday, 7 June 2011
this isn’t like you
I can’t get used to it now,
A guy that used to be a very decent guy
I let everything go for you alone
Try living without me,
Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
Don’t try to console me
we’re strangers now
Don’t worry about me and go away
I’ll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I’d hang onto you
It’s disgusting, don’t misunderstand
I’ll meet someone so much better
I’ll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
love is over tonight
Just say what you gotta say
How can you be uncool to the very end?
I’m walkin’ out of destiny
Not pitifully alone, but a glamorous solo
That’s my way
I gave it my all, so I don’t have regrets
Pretending like you’re more sad
Pretending you’re cool to the end
All you do is act a fool
You ain’t shit without your crew
I don’t have time, I gotta go
So long, good bye, adios
I don’t want to see your ugly face again no more
Cause love is over
love is over tonight
Go away, i dun wan to hv anything to do wif u again.
posted at : Tuesday, June 07, 2011
A Wishful Dream Of Mine~
it jus seems so real to me...
another ordinary day after school.
i was on my way out of the school gate wen i saw u n her...
wad was going on? idk...
u two were talking...
with her eyes filing with tears every second into the conversation.
wad did u say to her?
i cn tel tat its smth tat broke her heart...
i pretended tat i saw nth...
i decided to walk faster in case i interupted smth...
bt smth u did took me by surprise.
u saw me walking...as i was abt to pass u guys,
u grabbed my hand n told me to wait for u.
i was shocked n cant move a muscle...
u told her: im vry sry, bt, ur nt her...
those words...it was so clear in my mind still...
with tat, she jus ran away crying...
i did nt noe wad to do then wen u turned ard to face me...
i hv to ad mit i was filled happiness.
however, i tot abt her feling...no girl deserved this...
before i knew wad cud come nxt, i forced myself to wake up...
i cant help bt feelguilty abt it..
i swear, i hv nvr wanted to break u two up...nvr!
bt at the same time, i feel as if this dream will b coming true...oh.
wad m i supposed to do?! :'(
posted at : Tuesday, June 07, 2011
You Will Never Know~
Monday, 6 June 2011
u will nvr noe hw much u mean to me,
hw much i love u...
i kept remembering hw i felt,
the way my heart beats wenever ur name lights up my entire screen...
the time we used to chat on9 n sms each other for hours on end.
it started out as me trying to help a fren to get u,
bt i did nt realise tat i were to fall so deeply n fast in love with u...
bt now, u were avoiding me...
y wud u do tat?
i jus dun understand it, i dun understand u...
i jus wish tat i wud hv the chance again,
to talk to u in real life this time to get to noe hw u reli feel...
or mayb, jus u sending me a text first wud mean the world to me...
bt dan, it is very obvious...
im nt the kind of girl to run after...
im the type hu jus sits n wait...
im jus wondering,
hw long more cn i wait...
well, forever i guess...
love is indeed blind...
ppl say tat ur nt a gd guy...
in fact, they said u were a gangster,backstabber,betrayer etc...
bt to me, ur the nicest guy ever.
all ur imperfections made u just the rite n perfect guy for me...
the one tat i hv been waiting for all my life...
bt u will nvr understand, will u?
i tot we had smth...
smthing special tat only we understand...
bt i was wrong,
totally wrond in fact...
it was only my wishful thinking all along...
u hv nvr felt the same at all...
i missed u every second of my life...bt u? i dun tink so...
sometimes catching u stealing glances at me, my heart just stopped...
if only u will look at me tat way forever, i wud b reli happy...
u had the most beautiful eyes i hv ever seen...
bt me, im jus another girl...
wen i knew tat u had a gf...
i felt as though my world had ended...
people were congratulating u all over the net,
i locked myself in my room n started crying for days...
i gathered my courage to send u a sms saying congratulations...
u did nt even bother to reply a thank you to me...
all these moments might hv meant nth to u...
bt to me, its everything.
u r the guy wich made me believe tat true love ever existed...
bt i guess its gone now...
i felt tat im jus plain dumb.
i do not even think twice abt rejecting aother guy as i was always waiting for u...hoping tat u wud one day b mine...
tat day will nvr come somehow...
i hv always tot tat it was only a crush btwn us...
bt hu m i kidding? I LOVE YOU!
bt to u, im jus someone u met on a bus..
frens told me to believe...
bt hw cud i wen u dun even show a slight interest in me at all?
haiz...no matter wad excuses i gv...
im nt able to forget u at all.
so, i will wait still.
i will b rite here waiting for u...
if u ever nid someone,
u noe im always up for the task...
even if im us a substitude,
its enuf for me though...
i dun expect more dan this...
no matter hw long,
i'll still be here ok?
this i promise cos,
boy, I LOVE YOU from the bottom of my beating HEART...
i reli do...
posted at : Monday, June 06, 2011
Sudden Hesitations~
i dunno y...bt im begining to reli hv doubts if u reli like me like others say...
1st: u hv a girlfren.
2nd: u tell ur frens a different story.
3rd: ur not hu i tot u were.
4th: u became a gangster...
does this show tat u like me? no! totally no!
However...
My brother n u r frens...
u used him to get an update on hu i like.
bt hw do u noe hu Z is?!
my bro did nt tel u tat.
wen my bro asked if u like me cos u gt a gf alr, u said: I tot she gt gf?!
wen my bro asked y did u tell others u dunno me or dun like me, u said: aiya...i like her dunnid other ppl to noe.
n even wen my bro told u tat i like u alr...u forced him to ask me if i like any other guy besides u.
wad is the meaning of these?
did u get urself a gf cos u tot tat i had one?!
were u doing this on purpose?
how cud u? she is ur bestfren's sister!
no girls deserves to b treated like tat!
so i guess tat leaving u the way u r now wud b best...
im nt gonna care hu u reli like anymore as it jus hurts me further.
last long wif her n dun ever ever break her heart.
i wish u all the very best.
i will still love u.....ALWAYS.
posted at : Monday, June 06, 2011
